I need help

Just as a warning this post is completely selfish and a bit of a pity party. But that's the great things about blogs and friends. I can say what I need to say and know that you all will love me anyway. Perhaps I'll find what I need too :)

So this week marks the 16th week of my 24 week weight loss journey. As of today I have lost 31 lbs and 33lbs of fat. Which means that all 31lbs that I have lost are fat and I've gained a little bit of muscle.

Now I should be totally excited and proud of myself but I'm still struggling. I'm am proud of what I have done and realize that it's a great accomplishment. But these last 3 or 4 weeks have sucked! I've only lost about a 1lb a week and I just can't stop wanting to snack. Since Easter there has been way too much candy in my house and I often find myself having and little here and a little there. For the most part that is usually okay but I've also been slacking on doing my workouts. I only get 3 out of 4 days of cardio and 0 out of 2 days of weights. I've been telling myself that even if I'm losing only 1 lb a week that's still good but this week I only lost .4lbs. That is so bad. I have totally lost my motivation and after talking Dan he said that maybe I should take a few months off and then try again. That about brought me to tears cuz I feel like I would totally be giving up. I had this great goal in mind that by the time summer got hear I would have met my goal and be looking and feeling great. Dan explained to me that not only am I fighting and playing a weight loss game with my body but I am with my mind too. And if my head is not in the game then my body won't be either. Which makes sense but I really don't want to give up. I'm hoping this week I can figure out what my deal is and either buckle down and push through my slump or take a brake in hopes that when I come back I'll be able to really meet my goal.

Dan said I should do that whole biggest looser trick and put on a back pack that weighs 30lbs and wearing for about a half a day. Then take it off and realize what I have lost. He said maybe that will help me HA! Maybe I will do that. I need to do something to get my motivation back. This is getting so hard!!!

Maybe I'll take a picture of what I look like now and post a before and now pic. Maybe that will help.

Don't worry I'm just thinking about loud in hopes it helps. Thanks for reading/listening to me complain. Love and miss you all.

What did you learn?

I don't know about you but general conference was less then successful for me. My kids were out of control and as much as I tried to entertain them I just didn't get to listen to conference like I has hoped. So I thought it would be fun to see what you ladies learned. What inspired you?

Three for Three?

So here is the picture I mentioned at the park. I checked the date it was taken and it says 6/30/10. So...if my calculations serve me correctly we are all prego in this pic! What a fun surprise :)

I always have so much fun spending time with you both & truly treasure the friendship that we have made to last! Can't wait until my next trip out to see you again :)

Soul Mate

I saw these shirts on Pinterest and had to share them with you guys. Aren't they thy cutest things? I am looking forward to another family trip to D-Land when Matt gets home. We may even decide to wait and go for Halloween?? Do you guys recommend going that time of year?

My progress

Britt has already seen this photo and already knows how things are going for me (thanks to instagram). But I thought I'd post here too.

As of Tuesday I have lost 20 lbs! Things are going really well for me. Some days are really hard and I find myself falling back into old habits of snacking and eating bad foods and other days I'm a rock star and stay on track with my plan. For the most part I've done great with my exercising. It's nice that Pinnacle has a free gym for me to use. It's kind of funny to go work out cuz it's usually me and a few crazy young dudes trying to put on muscle. Silly boys that run next to me and then go into the weight room and stare at themselves while they "pump iron" LOL! I just stay in my little world and do my cardio work out and enjoy whatever book I'm listening too (which has been the Hunger Games trilogy. Can I just say that those books are amazing. I was totally glued and couldn't wait to go to the work or to the gym just so I could listen to my book. ha!)

Anyways...here is a beginning picture and an current picture. I'm not sure that you can even tell much has changed but I can. I'm down at least a size or two in my clothes and feeling like I have much more energy.

I'll keep you posted as things continue for me. This week seems to not be going so great. The scale is not moving much :(  So for the next 3 days I have to eat no carbs. Boo! I love carbs. 

Remember when...

Do either of you remember telling me how hilarious you thought this scene from "Drive Me Crazy" was?? I watched it on Netflix tonight and laughed so hard!

My New Headboard

Here are a few pictures of the headboard I mentioned making with Matt-well, I helped a little, but most of the hard labor was all his doing :) I Love love LOVE IT & am inspired to finish decorating my room-hopefully before he comes home for good ;)